Curator’s Spotlight: @bigfunbeth

This week’s post is by my friend @bigfunbeth, who is the co-owner of one of my favorite stores: @GreenwichLetterpress

“My So-Called Life, 30 Years”

“My So-Called Life debuted on April 25, 1994. It was the summer before I started high school and I was fourteen years old.

On that Thursday night in 1994, a small group of my friends convened at Jessica’s house. We all crammed onto her couch to watch the pilot debut. “An honest look at growing up in the 90’s said the ad that ran in TV Guide. Wait, we were growing up in the 90’s and who were all of these people that kind of look like people who could know? Plus, the show already had its own scandal- the main girl wants to stab her mother in the first episode, we heard? “Wait, is she really going to say that?”

After the pilot ended I remember immediately thinking, “I don’t know if I’m the same person I was an hour ago.” I looked around me. None of my other friends had liked the show very much.This felt like something that had separated me from them irreparably. We never got together to watch it again, and my hair was dyed orange by the end of 8th grade. I was Angela Chase, and at the time, it felt like I was the only one.

For the next handful of months, I was obsessed, and then, as suddenly as it had exploded into my life. It was over. There were rumors. Poor ratings. The lead actress wanted to pursue movies instead. I remember asking my mother about it like she wrote for Premiere magazine or something and had the inside scoop. There was no social media to turn to, there was no 24 hour news cycle. What had just happened to the thing that felt like my actual life just spread across nineteen episodes of TV? There was an online petition to bring it back, which at the time was groundbreaking. Then, just nothing…until MTV.

When MTV got the right to syndicate the show, I got to see my old friends again. They would cut the promos in fun and clever ways. There were all-day marathons, and one was hosted by Claire Danes and Jared Leto. I can remember the very 90’s dELIA’s looking shirt Claire wore. Her hair, OMG, it’s kind of strawberry blond now and shorter, and OMG, Jared’s hair is short now, too. I was so thirsty for content. I was starved for it, or whatever.

When the “Self-Esteem” episode come on it was like, everyone please stop talking and leave the room. He’s about to grab her hand in the hallway. For me, this was the epitome of love on screen, and I yearned for that love to happen to me in real life. As did every single person I have discussed that scene within the past thirty years. In fact, we all screwed up countless relationships holding out for that exact moment.

MTV gave the show a new audience and anyone who had missed out the first time had a chance to watch it. I remember meeting new kids in high school who now loved it and watching repeats with my sophomore-year boyfriend. There was a community growing around this show and it was like, cool. It was actually just cool. People were connecting with something that felt honest, inspired, and real. Only if it now only existed in reruns.

I recently showed the series to my husband for the first time, who was in his 20s, when it premiered. He was so taken with how dark the show was. Not the mood, he said, but the literal lack of actual light, which he thinks impacted how it was received for the first time around. I’m like, yeah, babe, that is the light that you bask in as a teenage girl filled with angst, lust, emotion, and uncertainty.

Since I own a shop, I have to comment on the merch. MSCL had virtually nothing to offer its obsessed fans. There was an early VHS set and soundtracks on cassette and CD. My sister and I of course had the soundtrack on both mediums and were horrified to discover that “Late At Night” by Buffalo Tom was missing. Nooooo. In 2002, there was a DVD set (no bonus content) and then a deluxe version that came in a lunchbox. By 2007 there was yet another DVD set, but this time there were extras. Finally, something else we could grab onto. Creator Winnie Holzman and Claire Danes sat down together and discussed what might have happened in season two. When I first watched this conversation, I felt like crying and then passing out. It was 1995 all over again. A love triangle between Angela, Jordon, and Brian!? Sharon pregnant?!? Graham leaves Patty?!? The agony was unbearable. It honestly still is.

All of these years later, despite just that single season of TV and lack of physical ephemera, this show doesn’t just quietly linger on (cue the Cranberries) – it has a foot firmly planted in the hearts of everyone who fell in love with it thirty years ago. In fact, it’s a barometer. I use for when I meet new people. The second someone can have the MSCL conversation, I think, “This is my person, and I am their person.” Countless times I’ve acknowledged with friends and fans about how this show made us realize we were transitioning into adulthood. How, with every rewatch, you start to connect more with Patty and Grahan and drift a little farther away from lockers and boiler rooms. When I was a teenager, I thought it was gross how much sex her parents had on the show, and now I think it’s hysterical. What 40 years with kids and careers has the energy for that much sex? Plus, now, I am four years older than Patty Chase was on the show, Hold on, I’m calling my therapist…

“Patty, we’re forty!”- Camille Cherski

As for someone who lives and breathes nostalgia and often wonders if it’s a mistake, I never feel like rewatching MSCL is a waste of my time. The things that made me laugh or cry all those years ago still do, and I feel like I learn something new about human nature every time I revisit. There is so much that has already been said about this show and, what its place was in the 90’s and how it might resonate to young people today. This is not that. This is just my little ode to a time and place that was for me, My absolute So Called Life.

Stray Thoughts

  • Was the Chase’s cat name Lady Di?
  • Tino is the JAWS of the 90’s, much more powerful to never see him
  • Shit ok, Brian IS cute!
  • It’s insane that Graham tells Neal about his affair in the kitchen while Patty is within earshot.
  • Andy Cherski is probably a babe.
  • I love that Graham is shocked Patty can make curtains and she’s shocked he can hang wallpaper.
  • “Brain Krahow?” “I like Buffalo Tom, I do!” “Stephan Dieter guy. Still funny.
  • I want to be friends with Vic Racine and Mr. Katimski and share coffee with them in the teacher’s break room. I also desperately want to be invited into a teacher’s break room, anywhere.
  • Weekend, Life of Brian, The Substitute and Self Esteem are my favorite episodes.
  • If you can find a friend to tell off Jordan like Rayanne does, you’ve arrived.

Five movies to watch!

Occasionally, I get asked what movies I have been watching lately. So, I decided to blog about five films or series I recommend!

Dream Scenario (2023), starring Nicolas Cage and Julianne Nicholson. Directed by Kristoffer Borgli

Nicolas Cage stars as Paul Matthews, a professor obsessed with biology and everything animal theme. He feels like his identity and image are not important enough even though he has tenured as his job. However, he claims fame when people start telling him that he has been randomly popping into their dreams, which causes a downward spiral in his life and that of everyone around him.

Ghosts (UK version 2019-2023) – starring Mathew Baynton, Simon Farnaby and Martha Howe-Douglas

I am a fan of ghosts! This comedy series is one of the few times I had to pause the show because I was laughing so hard that I could not focus on what was happening next!!

Farewell China (1990) starring Maggie Chung and Tony Ka Fai Leung. Directed by Clara Law.

I watch these on the Criterion Channel. Tony Ka Fai Leung starts as Zhou, who tries to find his wife after she goes to New York City and separates from him.

Late Night with the Devil (2023) starring David Dastmalchian, Laura Gordon, and Georgina Haig. Directed by Cameron and Colin Cairnes

A lost episode from a late-night show from 1977 that causes chaos and terror.

On my watchlist: Baby Reindeer (2024)

Starring Richard Gadd and Jessica Gunning. Richard Gadd stars as Donny, who meets a woman who tells him that she is a lawyer. An interaction occurs between the two, and instantly, an obsession is made.

The Virgin Suicides Soundtrack: A Teenage Love Story

It was 1997 when I first came across Jeffrey Eugenides’s novel The Virgin Suicides. I was in my public library browsing through the many sacks when the book’s title made me stop walking. I took it out of the row and was intrigued. I did not want to read the back of the book. Instead, I decided to check it out and take it home. I went to my favorite reading spot at home and opened the first page. I was totally engulfed by the words because I felt like it was a Southern Gothic novel set for teenage girls. I read the whole book in one sitting because it felt like those words on the pages were similar to what I thought I was going through as a pre-teen. Middle school was rough for me because I felt like a loner.

My best friend was books because with books, I could escape and live many lives through someone else’s pages. Jeffery Eugenides captured all of my pre-teen emotions fully in this book. I read the book thrice that year until I finally convinced myself to buy my copy.

It was not until the year 2000 that I was walking by a store and saw the movie post for the movie:

I was surprised that there was a movie made from it. I wonder if the film would capture all of my teenage emotions. Did the movie capture all of the gothic spookiness I felt between the words from the book?

I was able to track down the movie on cable a couple of years later on the Sundance channel. I absolutely loved this movie. It captured many emotions I felt the first time I read the book.

But what stayed with me for a very long time was the soundtrack:

The Air (the score version) and the movie soundtrack stuck with me for the longest time. For most of my teenage years, I had to rebuy both versions of the soundtrack because I played it so much that I made a clear hole out of the CDs. The movie soundtrack introduced me to such artists as Todd Rundgren and 10cc.

And yes, this scene made me fall in adoration for Trip Fontaine:

Even to this day, this movie’s soundtrack and score play in constant rotation in my playlist. Because it captures the eternal feelings of all of my teenage emotions and has a good set of songs!

What movie soundtrack(s) was the soundtrack to your teenage years?

Comment below!!!

Source: Wikipedia. Youtube

Five Criterion Collections Wants!

The Criterion Collection is having a spring sale until May 27, 2024. Here are five Criterions that are on my want list!

To Die For (1995):

Spine number 1213. Directed by Gus Van Sant and starring Nicole Kidman and Joaquin Phoenix.

Based on Joyce Maynard’s book with the same title as the movie, this dark comedy revolves around a character named Suzanne Stone, who dreams of becoming famous and being on TV by any means.

The link to buy is here:

https://www.criterion.com/films/32358-to-die-for

Risky Business (1983):

Spine number 1227. Directed by Paul Brickman and starring Tom Cruise and Rebecca De Mornay. (this is a preorder date of July 23, 2024). I didn’t watch this movie until three years ago, but it is one of my favorite movies from the 1980s.

The link to preorder is here:

https://www.criterion.com/films/33808-risky-business

Peeping Tom (1960):

Spine number 58. Directed by Michael Powell. Starring Carl Boehm. This movie is one of those films that sticks with you after you watch it. One man’s weird and addictive addiction to voyeurism turns deadly.

The link to buy is here:https://www.criterion.com/films/235-peeping-tom

My Own Private Idaho (1991):

Spine Number 277. Directed by Gus Van Sant. Starring River Phoenix and Keanu Reeves as two young swindlers on the streets with no home or attachment to anyone or anything other than the two of them.

The Link to buy is here: https://www.criterion.com/films/249-my-own-private-idaho

Umberto D. (1952):

Directed by Vittorio De Sica. Vittorio De. Sica is one of my favorite directors, and this movie makes me cry every time I watch it.

What movies are on your to-buy list for the spring? Comment below!!!

Until next time!

Mother’s Day Movies/Book Recommendations!

Happy Mother’s Day to all who celebrate! Here are some book and movie recommendations to celebrate some fantastic mom characters!

Terms of Endearment (1983):

Starring Shirley MacLaine, Debra Winger, and Jack Nicholson. Directed by James L. Brook, Shirley MacLaine is magical in this as Aurora, and Debra Winger as Emma. They play two personalities that clash constantly but come together as mother-daughter when times become difficult.

Betty by Tiffany McDaniel—I read this book two years ago. It touches on topics such as poverty, violence, and abuse. Betty is one of eight siblings living in a dilapidated farmhouse the town claims is haunted and cursed. Therefore, anyone who lives in it shares those same characteristics as the farmhouse.

Carrie (1976):

Starring Sissy Spacek, Piper Laurie and Amy Irving. Carrie is not like your average teenager. She doesn’t make friends easily and has an extremely strict household.

Mommie Dearest:

Mommie Dearest by Christina Crawford. I read this book every couple of years. I remember when I first read it, I was taken aback by Christina’s shocking claims. However, reflecting back on what I read and the recent claims that have come out about the book, I still wonder which parts were the truth and which were not.

Baby Boom (1987):

Starring Diane Keaton and Sam Shepard. A few years ago, I was in a bad mood and wanted to slip away and watch a funny movie. I turned on Turner Classic Movies and saw this movie was on. It was such a cute and funny movie about J.C. Watt, who is very career-minded; however, everything stops when she learns she has inherited a baby.

The Exorcist:

The Exorcist by William Peter Blatty: Regan and her mother live in Washington, D.C. Her mom is a famous actress currently filming a movie in the area. Everything seems pleasant and wonderful until Regan starts to act weird.

What movies or books do you usually watch during this time?

Comment below!

Nannie Doss: The Giggling Granny

Nannie Doss had many nicknames: “The Lonely Hearts Killer, the Black Widow, and the Giggling Granny. She was born in Blue Mountain, Alabama, on November 4, 1905. She had four other siblings and had an abusive and micromanaging kind of father. He often did not want Nannie and her sisters to wear makeup or any revealing clothing because he wanted to deter any men from sexually bothering them. Her father also would never allow them to go to social events such as dancing or socializing with other people outside the family. This made her despise him because he forced Nannie to work on the family farm and not go to school, which caused her to have no formal education.

When Nannie was seven, she was on a family trip to southern Alabama. She hit her head on a metal bar while sitting down on a train when the train made a sudden halt. After that accident, she had various headaches, blackouts, and major depression. Nannie said that this accident served as a significant culprit to her mental state when she killed those people.

Growing up, Nannie Doss enjoyed reading her mom’s romance magazines and fantasizing about her future love life. She was particularly fond of the Lonely Hearts section.

Her first marriage was to her co-worker at the linen factory, Charley Braggs, at 16. They dated for only four months before her father gave them consent to marry. After the two got married, her husband was steadfast in wanting to continue to live with his mother since he was her only child.

Charley Braggs’s mother took up an extreme amount of time and attention. The couple had four children and were utterly dependent on Nannie. This resulted in Nannie constantly drinking and smoking, which became a nasty habit. It created a rift between the two and started the blame game of them having affairs, and Charley Braggs would not come home for days on end.

Tragedy struck in 1927 when two of their daughter died due to food poisoning, which caused Braggs to take their other daughter and run away from Nannie. Only the youngest, named Florine, stayed with Nannie and Braggs mom, but she also shortly died. The couple got divorced in 1928 because Braggs was scared of Nannie.

Nannie remarried in 1929 to Robert Franklin Harrelson and moved to Jacksonville with Melvina and Florine. A few months into their marriage, Nannie discovered that her new husband was an alcoholic and had an assault charge. However, this was her longest marriage on record, 15 years.

In 1943, one of her daughters, Melvina, gave birth to a baby girl. She went to visit her mother shortly after she gave birth. Melvina was heavily tired and groggy due to the fact she was given ether while giving birth. She was not sure, but she thought she saw her mother put a hatpin into her baby’s head. However, when she asked her husband and sister to recall what happened, they said that Nannie had informed them that the baby had died, and they saw that she was holding the hatpin when they were told. The couple had another baby shortly after the death of the first one.

The death of their baby drove Melvina and her husband apart to the point that Melvina was dating a soldier. Nannie did not like the soldier and constantly argued with Melvina about it. While visiting her father, Melvina left Nannie to care for her baby, and the baby ended up deceased on July 7, 1945. The cause of death was asphyxia for an unknown reason. However, this did not stop Nannie from collecting a life insurance claim for $500.00 two months after he was deceased.

In 1945 Harrelson raped Nannie, and the following day she put rat poison in his whiskey jar. Harrelson was deceased by that evening.

Nannie went on to marry another husband, Arlie Lanning. They met while commuting through Lexington, North Carolina, through the Lonely Hearts column. They married three days into their relationship; however, Arlie shared traits similar to those of her previous husbands. He was a womanizer and drank heavily, but Nannie would be MIA for months at a time but still played the dutiful wife when she did come home. So, it was no surprise that Arlie Lanning died of supposed heart failure. In Arlie’s will, he left his house to his sister; however, it burned down under mysterious circumstances, but the insurance money was given to Nannie since it was still considered the couple’s home.

Nannie quickly left North Carolina and went to Arlie’s sister’s place to stay. However, Arlie’s sister became bedridden and promptly died under Nannie’s care.

Nannie was still looking for a husband and married Samuel Doss in June 1953 in Tulsa, Oklahoma. He was a Nazarene minister who did not like his wife’s romance novels and did not allow them in the house. In September of that year, Samuel was in the hospital with symptoms that resembled the flu; however, he was diagnosed with a severe digestive tract infection. On the mend from treatment at the hospital, he was released from them on October 5. Unfortunately, Samuel ended up passing away on October 15, 1954. Nannie killed Samuel to collect two life insurance that she put on him. The doctor who treated him saw a red flag in that and ordered Samuel to have an autopsy. There was a noticeable amount of arsenic found in his body, and finally, Nannie was arrested.

Nannie Doss admitted to killing her mother, her mother-in-law, four husbands, and her grandson. However, it is believed that she may have killed more than what she pleaded guilty to. Her guilty plea was made on May 17, 1955, in the state of Oklahoma, and she was sentenced to life in prison since the death penalty was not an option due to her sex.

She died in 1965 in Oklahoma State Penitentiary from leukemia.

Source: Wikipedia

Spring reading: 5 books to read this spring!

With the new spring season, I am always interested in what books come with it. Here are five books I am looking forward to reading this spring season:

Native Nations: A Millennium in North America by Kathleen DuVal. Professor Kathleen DuVal teaches early American and American Indian history at North Carolina at Chapel Hill. This is her second book, and this new book discusses how Indigenous Americans made multiple cities way before North America was founded.

The Link to order is here: https://www.penguinrandomhouse.com/books/575441/native-nations-by-kathleen-duval/

Bugsey and Other Stories by Rafael Frumkin. This collection of five stories brings funny and creative tales that break away from your regular reading material.

The Link to buy is here: https://www.simonandschuster.com/books/Bugsy-Other-Stories/Rafael-Frumkin/9781982189761

The Swans of Harlem by Katen Valby concerns five ballerinas from the Dance Theatre of Harlem during the Civil Rights movement. This absorbing book finally tells the stories of endurance, dance, and friendship.

The Link to buy is here: https://www.penguinrandomhouse.com/books/716415/the-swans-of-harlem-by-karen-valby/

Tom Selleck: You Never Know. The actor and the cool guy have finally written a memoir!

The Link to buy is here: https://www.harpercollins.com/products/you-never-know-tom-selleck?variant=41170682511394

Husbands by Holly Gramazio. Lauren goes to her house one night and sees a lovely, fully decorated home. She is greeted by her fantastic husband. The only problem is that she is not married!

The link to buy is here:https://www.penguinrandomhouse.com/books/743083/the-husbands-by-holly-gramazio/

What books are currently on your to-read list?

Comment below!

Spring Refresh

Spring always feels like a new opportunity and a new beginning for me. I guess it is because winter has always been so bitterly cold. When warmer weather comes around, I feel like it’s a new chance to look at things and people differently. This winter was a bunch of twists and turns regarding challenging my personality and limits. I was also able to expand my frame of mind and have met many new people in the process. What does spring mean to you? Comment below!

I don’t want to Live on the Moon

One of my favorite Sesame Street songs ( mind you, I have tons of them!) is “I Don’t Want to Live on the Moon,” sung by Ernie and written by Jeff Moss.

This song was originally part of the “The People in Your Neighborhood ” album from 1980. However, it was part of Sesame Street season 15 on November 28, 1983. We find Ernie expressing his total interest in visiting the moon but not wanting to live there. He also discusses other places he would love to visit, like the ocean, to see all of the fishes of the sea. However, Ernie prefers to just visit those places because he would rather stay with his friends and loved ones and return home.

There are many different versions and interpretations of the song, including a book of the same name released in 2001. Even different languages sing this song, like the one from Plaza Sesamo.

What is your favorite Sesame Street song? Comment below!

Source: Youtube and Sesame Street Wiki.

Contributor’s Spotlight: The Black Woman as a Vessel by Ambe McKinney ( @neosrebirth )

“Throughout Simone Leigh’s 2023 exhibition at the Hirshhorn Museum, several visual
motifs and themes within her works kept reappearing. These themes suggested the idea of the
black woman as an intertemporal sempiternal being. Leigh created several forms of the black
woman that were visually monumental, almost to the point of a commemorative statue that is
somewhat modernist in concept. These works visually were heavily inspired by cultural African
forms such as the D’mba Headdress, or West African bust (Figure 1). One of the main themes
displayed in the exhibition was the idea of the black woman as a nurturing and intellectual vessel
or an architectural being through a skeuomorphic lens, with other objects to support this idea.
The exhibit had a contemplative atmosphere that helped produce a meditative frame of
mind while viewing the works. Many of the works instead of being close to each other, or in a
sequential row to be viewed, were instead spaced out, often occupying their own sections of the
rooms placed in. This spacing helped give the viewer time to deeply think on what lay in front of
them without being overwhelmed, or uninterested because the work in front of them was
substantial enough to view on its own (Figure 2).

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The placement of lighting within the exhibit
also greatly accentuated the colors and primary features within the works. It helped add to the
harmony of the spacing of all the pieces displayed. Leigh presented African sculpture inspired
Afrocentric depictions of black women as shelter-like objects, or symbols to be engulfed in or
protected by.

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The first piece featured in the beginning of the exhibit titled Cupboard (Figure 3)
emulated a voluminous women’s dress. It was massive in stature with a chalk white cowrie shell,
a common motif in Leigh’s work, on the top and light brown raffia palms ballooning from below
the shell. The physical structure of the sculpture created an image that resembled a shell sitting
upon a bell shaped haystack, or even a head peeking out of one.

According to the work’s plaque description (Figure 4),

Leigh “pointed to the 1931 Paris Colonial Exposition, which established
the hut within a colonial iconography” when creating this piece. Within this exposition, France
mounted the hut along with other significant cultural items from different colonized countries to
display the vast expanse of cultures France’s imperialism had reached and was then in control of
as a form of shared culture immersion and assimilation. In the context of this work by Leigh, she
utilized the imagery of the hut to create a sense of “gathering places or dwellings” according to
Figure 3. The work signifies a divine energy, which the cowrie shell is often representative of,
while also giving a sense of shelter for one to reside in, like a cupboard for a small child or a hut
for communal gathering.


The series of three bronze works in the third room of the exhibit titled Vessel (Figure 5),
Bisi (Figure 6), and Herm (Figure 7), all continued the idea of the black woman as a structural
being.

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All three had a structured architectural elements to them, with Vessel having an
Afrocentric asphalt black eyeless female figure with a permed hairstyle similar to that of a
stereotypical 1960s housewife, and an exaggeratedly elongated concave torso standing on one
right foot. Bisi featured another eyeless female figure in asphalt black, but as an armless bust, cut
off at the shoulder with close cut hair. The half below the torso of this work had a semi cylinder
shaped like a skirt that is said to be able to enclose “Leigh’s own body” (Hampton, 2023) within
it. The last work featured in this series Herm (Figure 7) displays another figure asphalt black
female figure, eyeless as well, with their armless torso attached to a pedestal, a small almost scar
like slit in the middle, and one slightly bent leg perched out behind them. Of all the three Bisi
was the most visually striking of them all however, and resonated with the concept of the black
woman as a shelter. The structure of the skirt was built wide and long enough to shelter over a
small human being, as if being engulfed in one’s womb.
Through this exhibit the idea of intertemporality within art and overall the black woman,
and how a modernist view of certain cultural views in art can be translated in a contemporary
way was expressed. The architectural formatting of the works evoked a sense of meditation on
how in the outside world the black woman should be perceived by those who are not, and
highlighted the structural imagery of the essence of a black woman.”

If you would like to learn more about Ambe. Here is the following social media information:

@neosrebirth

Thank you for your contribution, Ambe!